In Search of Purpose

In Search of Purpose, is about believing in something greater than our circumstances.

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In Search of Purpose

The night before Micah and I left Rhode Island there was a dangerous ice storm. It was about 1 a.m. when we finally left our condo for the last time to drive to my parents house, which was about 10-15 minutes away. As we backed out of our parking lot the chaos of the ice storm issued. A car coming towards us was skidding down the road and if it wasn’t for Micah’s quick thinking it would’ve crashed right into us. As we progressed down the road with much caution, we ended up loosing control of our car and made a 180 degree turn in the midsection of a big hill.

Now, I want you to imagine the complete darkness that surrounded us, icy road conditions and an SUV stuck in the middle of a hill. I was absolutely petrified. I kept on saying, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!” I didn’t know what else to do or say. The reality of the situation was severe, if a car was going up or down the hill we both would’ve been severely hurt. It took about 45 minutes before we gained control of the situation. We arrived at my parents house two hours later. My frantic parents waited anxiously by the window.

On February 17th,  the day of departure, my parents, brother, Micah and I got in the car to head to the airport in Boston. The road conditions were still fairly dangerous. As we waited for the traffic light to turn green. The car behind us almost collided into us. If the light didn’t turn green at the moment that it  did, we most likely would have gotten in a really bad car accident.  As I sat in the backseat, I could not believe all that happened within the past 12 hours and we didn’t even start the real journey yet.

Fast forward to here and now. When we arrived in Korea we were both determined to find a church. Although our faith is strong, we did not want to live in a foreign country without a community of believers surrounding us. It was on Easter Sunday that we found our church home, Saeronam English Ministry. We just felt at home there. The people were so welcoming. The pastor was open to share his vision for the church and was intentional about getting to know his congregants. It did not take us long to join the worship team and serve not only God but the body he has placed us in.

I now think about the night before we left the States. All the emotional highs and lows, near death experiences and all those things that tried to stop us from getting to this point in our lives. The enemy of our souls was so busy. The reality of it is we could’ve been dead. But God kept us. We didn’t choose Korea, Korea chose us. We just stepped out in faith. We were in search of purpose. It was the promises God spoke over our lives that made us desire more in life. If we are the called out ones, then we must carry our cross no matter what it takes. Our lives in Korea have been a blessing but not without difficulty. But there is purpose in the pain, strength in the challenges, and much joy in the triumphs. Right now, we are experiencing “the stirring.” All that we were created to be is being called out. It is up to us if we will allow  it to come out, speak out, live out- or choose our own way and displace it. I pray our lives will continue to draw from the living well of life and that we will never stop being in search of our purpose…I’m just speaking out loud in my process of becoming.

“The purposes of a person’s heart are deep waters, but one who has insight draws them out” (Proverbs 20:5).

Signing Out,

Sunday, April 24th, 2016

Writer: Esther Lynn

2 months in: Change and Challenges

Two months ago Micah and I made the big move to South Korea. Its been a major adjustment, but in a good way. It takes much courage to live in another language. But this transition has taught us a  great life lesson, changes and challenges are good, if we view it with an objective mind.  We knew this concept before, but experience has taught us its meaning.

In many ways, Korea’s been a blessing to us. We are growing stronger together as a unit. Our faith is constantly being  amazed at God’s love, promises and overall greatness. For the first time, since we started our teaching careers we are serving and living in the same community as our students. No longer are we just  teachers  in the classroom. In Korea, everything is intermingled and connected into a concise whole; which is a good thing because it gives us a constant sense of awareness.

Just the other day I was encouraged by the infamous Dr. Seuss book, Oh, the Places You’ll Go! I was feeling a bit down. Although we’re off to great places and we’re off and away. There are some situations that we just can’t plan for. Such as, language barriers, cultural differences and different systems of doing things.  Living in another language requires much humility. We have to be comfortable with not always having control over certain things and not always knowing the answers. Every morning we have to brace ourselves for the lessons we will encounter throughout the day. But there is purpose in it all. We don’t regret our decision to move half way across the globe. I actually think it was one of the best decisions we’ve made. This experience is teaching us how to keep on walking, as my mother-in-law would say. It’s forcing us to move past our discomforts, failures and offenses. It’s fertilizer to our soil and it’s building us up while rooting us deeper.

On and on you will hike.And I know you’ll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are…remember that life’s a great balancing act. Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. And never mix up your right foot with your left. Your off to great places today is your day.  Your mountain is waiting. So, get on your way! _Dr. Seuss_

We are all in our process of becoming, till next time.

Signing Out,

Saturday, April 23rd, 2016

Writer: Esther Lynn

The Cadence of Life

Last weekend Micah and I experienced the beautiful Cherry Blossom festival in Jinhae-gu district in Changwon City. We went with a tour group, Enjoy Korea and we were very satisfied with their service. When we arrived in Jinhae it was very crowded. There were a lot of people from all over the world, including Koreans, from different parts of the country that came out to see the Cherry Blossoms. The experience itself was very beautiful. We had such a great time!

I was relatively surprised to see so many Koreans at the festival. I thought it would be  more of a tourist attraction. Before entering the country, I’ve read many different books that mentioned cherry blossoms as a symbol of oppression and removal of identity to the Korean people and their history, during the Japanese occupation. However, reading about the history of a country is not the same as actually living in the country and learning from the people of the land. When I am speaking with Koreans in my age group they don’t regard the history of the cherry blossom. They just think they’re beautiful, nothing more nothing less, which explains the endless amount of selfie sticks sold at the festival. But when I talk to Koreans that are much older than me they have a different perspective. They focus more on its history- where it came from, who planted it and why it represents more of the Japanese culture than the Korean people and land.

After thinking about my interactions with people from different age groups, I thought about my history and where my roots derive from. It reminded me of life in the states. Living in the in-between stages of not really knowing what to identify with when it comes to nationality or what to look for when it comes to history. Several times I’ve been asked if I’m African. Unbeknownst to those people, I’m waiting for them to say a specific country within the continent of Africa-but it never comes. It ends with, “Are you African?” How can I respond? In South Korea, people don’t spend time labeling or putting tags on their nationalities. Most Koreans are confused if I say, no, I’m Haitian-American BUT my ancestors come from Africa. It’s better off to be direct;  your nationality is determined by your passport.

I’m in search of finding my cadence in life. Moving across the world is teaching me no matter where I go the journey will continue. The peace of who I am and what nationality I belong to, or identify with, will never be found in history books or people, it can only be found from within. I’m just speaking out loud in my process of becoming.

Signing out,

Saturday, April 9th, 2016

Esther Lynn