Lead Me

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.“Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.”-Psalms‬ ‭139:24‬-25 ‭NLT‬-

As I stare at the water, take in the scenery and embrace the roaring noise from the ships engine; I just can’t help but to be thankful. God’s been so good to Micah and I. Just about a year ago, our dreams of traveling abroad was dim, slim and just a dream. We wanted our first venture abroad to be Japan. But God had different plans. 

His plans included an enduring trial of physical, emotional and spiritual hardships. He needed our vessels to be cleaned, weightless and pure for the journey ahead. I often recall the nights I spent at the hospital back in December. I remember laying in bed with my headphones, my arms pumping in the air giving him worship. I kept on saying to myself, my soul will bless the Lord and all that’s within me will continue to shout out. 

In times of trouble it’s easy to be silent. It’s easy to build resentment. But, God gave me a spirit that was and that is stronger than me. As I sit and take in this moment that HE has blessed me with- I feel free, I sense peace, I’m in awe of his grandeur and so in love with this miraculous journey. All I can say is Lord continue to lead me along the path of everlasting life.

SANKOFA, was the theme of our wedding. –Never forget where you came from. Learn from the lessons of the past and take them with you as you move forward into the future.- A year ago a dream, ambition, a longing for moving and living abroad was nonexistent. Today, we live in Korea, work with fun, curious and energetic children. And finally the time of rest has come. Where are we heading??? 🤔🤔🤔Of course our first trip outside of Korea would be Japan.😀😊😌

I’m just speaking Out Loud in my process of becoming…
Signing Out,

Esther Lynn

Monday, July 25, 2016

Defining Freedom

We all have the ability to define our own freedom I just pray we all take the necessary time to define it wisely.

SPEAKING OUT LOUD

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.” -Harriet Tubman-

Next week marks my fifth month in Korea. This past weekend, I reflected on my life in the United States and my present season in the land of the morning calm. I can’t help but have a heart of gratitude. As a little girl, I use to always dream about my life as an adult. I always knew I wanted a husband that would love me unconditionally. God has blessed me with a man that reflects his imprint, internally and externally. I always desired an impactful life, God is currently taking me on a journey that will lead to  an amazing, powerful story.

As a young girl, I was always inspired by Harriet Tubman. It was in the third…

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Defining Freedom

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.” -Harriet Tubman-

Next week marks my fifth month in Korea. This past weekend, I reflected on my life in the United States and my present season in the land of the morning calm. I can’t help but have a heart of gratitude. As a little girl, I use to always dream about my life as an adult. I always knew I wanted a husband that would love me unconditionally. God has blessed me with a man that reflects his imprint, internally and externally. I always desired an impactful life, God is currently taking me on a journey that will lead to  an amazing, powerful story.

As a young girl, I was always inspired by Harriet Tubman. It was in the third grade when I learned about her for the first time. I was captivated by her courage, perseverance and serving spirit. She was an ordinary woman that left her mark on MY HISTORY. I always thought of her as influential. History defines her as a woman who was never afraid of her process and the journey it took to take back what was rightfully hers from the beginning, her freedom.

At a young age, I was intrigued by this woman of faith. You see, Harriet Tubman never defined freedom as self gratification, ignorance or emotional rage. Her actions in conducting the Underground Railroad were never selfish. If it was she never would’ve freed thousands upon thousands of people-a nation. AND my ancestors stories would never have reached me in this age, day and season.

As an adult, freedom is being redefined by media outlets by numbing our senses. News coverage metastasizes racism where it is now a thing rather than a problem that needs to be confronted. We, including myself, are quick to play the blaming game. As grieving families are dealing with their loss, the media further assassinates the character of the one that’s being mourned. Wow!-If Harriet Tubman was a live, what would she say to this broken generation, this unjust system?

Perhaps she would say, “find freedom, child. Speak the truths that are rooted, embedded deep within you. Fall away from the deadly spirit of “I” and rise higher than the circumstances that somehow tries to shape you.” You see, the issue of black and white is NOT the only factor fueling the race wars happening in America, it’s deeper than that. Black and white are labels, categories, stereotypes used to define a people lost in their own coded language. Black versus white; immigrant versus native, gay versus straight- disproportionate messages that are bathed in too general and ignorant statements. I choose to rise higher and define freedom as one people under God, serving together to make our world better.

There will come a day when I, too, become an ancestor. I often wonder, what will my descendants say about me? They will look back in history in search of my words, actions and deeds. I have to ask myself, honestly  will I be proud of what history writes about my life? An old friend from long ago said to me, people are like tea bags, you want to see how strong they are, watch how their character develops when dipped in hot water.” In other words, the path to freedom can either build a person up or destroy them completely. It’s a process filled with trials that requires diligence, understanding and great endurance. It’s the molding of a remarkable leader, a Moses to a community of people. A sound voice in the midst of chaos. I define freedom by my dreams, aspirations, challenges and setbacks. It’s my joys, successes  and conquering moments. We all have the ability to define our own freedom I just pray we all take the necessary time to define it wisely.

I’m just Speaking Out Loud in my process of becoming…

Signing Out,

Monday, July 11th, 2016

Esther Lynn