How is my today preparing me for my tomorrow? A question that’s been plaguing my mind ever since I turned 25 years old. It’s no different at age 29. I live in a world where every thing is always rushed, everything is right now, fast paced living is the way of life, there is no process and it’s much easier to avoid the journey. It’s easier to waste endless amounts of energy complaining, rather than searching for a solution. Doing the wrong thing is much more gratifying than the right thing. Planning and preparing is far too daunting–. Long deep sigh….the list goes on and on…
This week I was confronted with a wise saying from the book of Proverbs. “Do your planning and prepare your fields before building your house.” (Proverbs 24:27) As I meditated on this scripture, I asked myself three questions.
- What am I planning?
- What have I prepared?
- Is my house honestly ready to be built?
In the past, I’ve made countless mistakes in equating plans and preparations with careers, finances and material positions. Not to say those things aren’t important, they most certainly are, but they are not the pillars of a home, nor a solid foundation that keeps it in place. There are plenty of people with gorgeous homes, amazing careers and endless material possessions who are still dissatisfied with life. As I’m getting older, my perspective on planning and preparation has changed. For me, building consistent solid relationships, investing time, energy and resources in causes that matter, walking in alignment with my life’s mission and purpose, which in turn produces positive impactful outcomes is what really matters.
When I thought about the questions, what am I planning and what have I prepared, I had to really think deeply about my process, journey, impact and progress. I had to separate things I’ve done (actions) with the values of my heart (character-authentic self). I thought about the many children I encounter on a daily basis at work and outside of the classroom. The many unknown names I interact with on the streets, walking to and from set destinations. I thought about the many things that give me a great sense of joy and the things that bring me deep sorrows. My plans consist of the deep treasures that were given to me by my creator, value systems that affect the world in a greater sense beyond just me. They are plans that my great ancestors must have started from long ago. Plans that have been hidden in the deep soils of my earth; plans rooted in the fields of preparation awaiting its season to be harvested and used.
The question, what have I prepared should be changed to what am I preparing. The preparation is an on-going process. It has its different stages but its never-ending. If not careful, preparations can become stagnant due to distractions and vainglory. It’s in my nature to long for acknowledgment and praise from others. But, if I’m truly honest with myself, words of affirmation from others do nothing for the soul, if the heart is discontent with life. It’s one thing to want more but, it’s another to never see the good and the growth along the way.
A house can only be built on a solid foundation. My foundation will always be found within my heart.
It’s just a matter of appreciating its greatness, deepness and vastness in my life. When I start looking else where to validate my worth, a piece of my structure becomes undone. I’m learning how to stay true and preserve the heritage (my foundation) that’s been established from the beginning.
I’m just Speaking Out Loud in my Process of Becoming…
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2016
Willynn Sanon Thompson
Writer’s Name: Esther Lynn
A field can bare much fruit, but only the farmer knows the true condition of the soil.